Never good enough 
Growing up as an undiagnosed AuDHD kid, in time where the knowledge of Autism and ADHD was more limited than it is these days... I had to deal with many issues, some of them were focused on me not being good enough. I didn't understand things well enough, the way I saw and experienced things were always "off", my solutions (however right they were) were dismissed because I didn't follow the right way to get there...

I've never been one to be very tidy. Mum always said that if I kept it messy, then I'd lose things. But I always knew where my things were. And in my eyes it wasn't that bad... When I got older, I struggled with cleaning. It was often "good enough" for me, and I'd only make a big effort if I would get visitors. But my "ok enough" was never deemed good enough by the partners I had. However hard I tried, I always failed to meet their standards. It was never worthy of compliment. Or even a thank you, as they all just saw it as my job to keep the home clean...
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